Like a broken vessel

Broken vessel hollow knight

There's a force greater than me that, no matter how hard I'm trying, I can't seem to be able to control it. Everything just feels like it's in a fog. I felt like I wasn't worthy or I was doing something wrong, because I'm having all these terrible thoughts. At first it really hurts, and then after a while it just feels numb. When I was by myself, I had a lot of self-doubt.

I didn't feel hope. I didn't know how to feel hope. I felt so alien. I felt so alone. I thought everybody was just against me or something. I even found myself at one time yelling in prayer, expressing my anger that this wouldn't stop. I was really broken. I felt like I had no control of my emotions. It's like water torture. It's just there.

It just never lets up.